There are days when I feel like I am never going to achieve my goal. I want this so badly..but I have weak moments. I am mad at myself because I should be closer to it than what I am. I gave in to the food...why?! I guess you have to fight harder everyday to beat up the inner you that's weak and wants to just eat. Why do we crave food that isn't healthy? The fact that it's so hard to give up makes me realize that it's stuff in there that's addictive! Things that will make us crazy and cranky when we don't have it! Things in there that will make us lose our minds! Lol I've lost it before...but now that I'm awaken...I'm not going back to sleep!! Food isn't worth me having to take insulin everyday cause I have diabetes now... Food isn't worth me keeping This stomach that I hate so much!!! I want it so bad...I cannot and will not let FOOD win! I now have the anger of the #FCKBEINGFAT in me! I am mad at myself..the weak fat person in me always trying to bring me down!!! I want to be proud of my body!!! I dont want to be self conscience anymore...it's tough! But I'm willing to suffer through the pain to get to my goal!
I'm posting her because she is what I want my body to be like. I know it won't be exactly the same but I want to get close to it.
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